Love It!

Coolest belt-buckle ever! I want one. :) Never thought I'd find myself saying I wanted a belt-buckle, but this one is awesome.

All Things Shall Come to Pass

You know how sometimes things take forever to get where you wish they would be? Yep, that's definitely what happened.
Two years ago, an old boyfriend and I ended our relationship with the promise to remain friends. Obviously that didn't go as planned. For the longest time, he avoided me, and when we would be put into the same area, he'd flat out ignore me. Part of that was my fault, and I completely acknowledge that one. We broke up in like, January or something like that, and I started dating Tyler in May. During the summer, the three of us all worked together at KCDA. Awkward for me? No. For him? Yes. For Tyler Mallory? No. His point of view: I got the girl, and I'm happy. Anyway, from the time we broke up to the time he left on his mission, we exchanged maybe twenty words, and two-thirds of them came from me. About two weeks ago, we started talking again. He's serving his mission in Mexico right now, so we're communicating through email. It's still pretty new, but we're airing everything from the past that's been bottled up for the last two years. It's not like we're at each others' throats; not at all. We're both really sorry about how things went down, and grateful for this chance we have to start a friendship again. I'm not willing to date again, because I'm so happy with Tyler. I've never been happier where I am right now. :) He and I have agreed to sit down and talk about everything when he comes home. I'm definitely not willing to come out and say something like, "I'm so happy with my missionary!" I actually WANT to be friends with this guy. It's just...strange to be talking again, but in a good way. I'm excited to see if we can actually be good friends again, or if we'll just be cordial. I'm also hoping that he and Tyler can meet officially sometime, but that's a long way off.

The Auburn Friends

So I've been thinking about this for a while now, and I still don't know exactly how to phrase it, so bear with me. 'Kay, thanks. :)

Tyler and I have been dating for about two years now. When I first came around, things seemed a little bit tense. Tyler once told me that he thought it was because I wasn't Heather, and I was someone who wasn't in the "group". I don't know if that's true, and frankly, I don't care to know if that's true.

Basically I just want this to be out there...I really do like his group of friends. I felt so bad when he stopped hanging round with you all. I think part of that was for me, but I really know that he felt that he wasn't cared for all that much anymore, because he wasn't with someone from his regular group. On more than one occasion, I was even accused of "taking Tyler away from the group of friends that he's had for years". I really truly want the whole group of Auburn friends to know that I want to be friends with everyone. I have absolutely nothing against anyone, and truthfully, I think it's time that I try to reach out and be everyone's friend. I guess I've just been scared to, because I've thought this whole time that I wasn't liked -- again, that could be the case, and if it is, please don't tell me. Please just give me a chance, and I'm pretty sure that things would be okay. :)

Guys, I'm so sure that all came out wrong. Please don't take it that way. If it did rub you the wrong way, I apologize.

Alice in Wonderland

In the words of Andy Bernard, "I'm not insightful enough to be a movie critic." However, I do know when a movie is not good. This was NOT the case for Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland. I went last night to see it with my good friend, Madison, and her mom down at Kent Station. Right from the beginning, I was in awe of the costuming! Perhaps my favorite costume from the entire movie was the red and black dress Alice wore in the castle of the Bloody Red Queen. Yep, that one. It was gorgeous!

As always, Helena Bonham Carter was genius. She's really a pro at what she does! So is Johnny Depp. No surprise, he was fantastic as the Mad Hatter.

Unfortunately, the critics don't really care for this movie. I've noticed that I tend to like things they don't, though. I liked it a lot, and recommend it to everyone. :)

Dear World,

I thought it might be time for just a small vent; sometimes it's more information for people, but to me, it seems like a vent. So bear with me just a little longer. I apologize in advance.

I've still been having some back problems, but thanks to Biofeedback, it's been getting a lot better! I LOVE Biofeedback!! It's been a serious lifesaver. However, my spinal specialist, Dr. Krengal -- or Wally, as Kayden likes to call him -- thinks that maybe my fusion in my back could be either irritated or interrupted. Who knows? Well, he does, I think. I have an appointment with him next month, and hopefully we'll find out then. Truthfully, if it is interrupted and will have to be fixed down the road, I just want to get it fixed now. Make sense? What if I'm pregnant down the road, and my baby kicks me wrong and causes damage? Or something like that. It's just not something I want to take a chance on. Plus it causes pain, and I'd like to get rid of that if at all possible. :) Hopefully we'll find out for sure on April 1st! Dr. Bruener, my pain specialist, says that I have the "A team" -- her, Dr. Lewin (cardiologist), Dr. Krengal (spine specialist), Dawn (geneticist), Rea (Biofeedback tech), and Dr. Jinguji (orthopedist). I like 'em. :) They're good at what they do, and they're concerned about all of this.


It's weird to know that coming up next month is the year mark of what caused all of this to happen in the first place: my car accident. I really wish that woman wouldn't have changed her story about how she was shoved into me by another car (FALSE). She had previous damage to her back side of the car, and lied to the insurance companies about it. We would have been able to avoid a lot of crap. Oh well. It's life that people get scared and change their stories. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if she hadn't hit me, would something have happened down the road? It is a blessing, though, because without all of this, we wouldn't have found my dural ectasia. Sometimes the Lord has a weird, roundabout way of helping us grow.

Mormon Messages

At Stake Conference this past weekend, there was a really good talk given on how we can use our facebook or blogs to explain what we believe in. I thought this was a great idea! She told us about a website where the church posts short videos about the church, or about what we believe in. I spent a good majority of my day watching some of these videos, and found them wonderful! I wanted to share my favorite one I found so far. It's called Finding Hope. Though I can't post the video itself to my blog, please don't disregard it. Take the eight minutes and watch it. It's about a man who found hope in Christ after surviving 9/11.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkWc_EKLs4E

I found it moving. If you don't, that's okay, but don't go into it ready to mock it just because it's what a Mormon believes. Open your mind and your heart, and no matter what your faith-based belief system is, I'm sure you'll find it at the very least, a nice video.
The regular link to watch more videos is www.youtube.com/mormonmessages
Have a great day! :)

Time For a Fresh Start

So I've been SUPER horrible at blogging with wordpress. I mean, really bad. So I thought I'd start over! Plus, Blogger allows you to have the cute backgrounds, and wordpress doesn't. :P

Life has been really good. Tyler's been gone for nine months, now, and that's flown by! School? I love school so much! I performed my first ECG (previously called EKG) yesterday, and I actually got a good reading.

I've been doing some Biofeedback to help with the back pain, and as of late, I've been pain free! Hooray!

Other than that, really nothing is going on.

Oops. I lied. Courtney and I are finger/brush painting a sheet. We're pretty talented, and yes, there will be pictures that do come when we're finished. I have to learn how to draw Mario and Luigi. Maybe Yoshi would come in handy, too, since we're painting the front cover of the new Mario game. Dorks? You bet! But we love every minute of it!

Since I'm not so good at adding pictures, I thought I'd practice with some from Tyler's last area. I don't know about you, but I really enjoy looking at my missionary friends' pictures. Hopefully you don't really mind. :)

He visited the set of The Office. I know, kind of weird that it's filmed in California, but isn't everything, pretty much?! The one with the car is at the Pimp My Ride museum. The last time he sent his card home, the majority of the pictures were from this museum.